Showing posts with label Dear God. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Dear God. Show all posts

Friday, May 25, 2012

Wooohooooooooo!

Am having an extremely good week. Thank you God for everything you're giving me!
Got the American Heart Association 2012 Western States Affiliate Postdoctoral fellowship Award/grant. It's my first ever grant to get funded.
I'm extremely excited and superrrrrrrrrr grateful for everything He's giving me. Mentors, projects, referents, Strength of mind, patience and of course results. This is the second time this is happening.. 2 awards in 2 days.. the last time this happened was Nov.
Jab Uparwala Deta Hai, Chappar Phadke Deta Hai!  
True that!! Thank you!

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Finally the BCVS Travel Award! :)


Control Number:  183
Presentation Number: 51
Abstract Title:  Nucleostemin Induced by Pim-1 Kinase is Critical to Maintain Pluripotency and Enhance Regenerative Potential of Cardiac Progenitor Cells

Dear Dr. Hariharan,

On behalf of the Council on Basic Cardiovascular Sciences, we are pleased to inform you that you have been selected to receive a BCVS 2012 Travel Award for Young Investigators for your abstract presentation during BCVS 2012.  As you know, the conference is scheduled for July 23-26, 2012, at the New Orleans Riverside Hotel in New Orleans, Louisiana.  ....
...This award, which is meant to help defray travel costs to the conference, will consist of a check in the amount of $500 and will be presented to you at the conference.  We also will waive the conference registration fee. ....

...Because you will be recognized at the BCVS Council Dinner, you will also be provided with a complimentary ticket to this event. We ask that you make every effort to attend. ....

This Travel award has taken 5 years to win (of course all along I was targeting the Scientific sessions travel award). But still an award is an award. Thank you God for everything.. especially for such exceptionally good mentors and projects.

Monday, December 12, 2011

Monday, November 28, 2011

The plaques

I managed to click pics of the plaques and here they are.






Friday, November 18, 2011

The awards

American Heart Association Scientific Sessions,2011 will be memorable for me. Was blessed with 2 awards - One was the "Best Manuscript Award, 2011" from Circulation Research, which was awarded on Sunday, November 13 at the Peabody International. I knew about this a while back and I've already blogged about this. But quite unexpectedly and as a fortunate stroke of serendipity, another award was handed to us on Tuesday, November 15 at the Hard Rock Cafe. This one was the "Most Downloaded  Original Research Article from Circulation Research, 2011".
Was damnn thrilled to receive the 2 awards :) An amazingly ecstatic feeling..
Before I go any further, I HAVE TO pay my thanks to everyone who contributed to the paper - the collaborators for their mice, plasmids and reagents, Yasu - the post doc in Dr. Sadoshima's lab for helping me with the paper and most importantly to my mentor, Dr. Sadoshima himself. No amount of "Thank you"s will be sufficient for him and of course to God! Am putting up 2 pics of me getting the awards. I will click pics of the plaques separately and put it up here! Its a nice feeling.

Once nice thing about these pics is that I have both my mentors (past and present) standing next to me! Both pics aren't of the greatest resolution, but I waana put 'em up here for the memories they will carry for the rest of my life! The first one's from Sunday and the second one's from Tuesday!

A Million thanks to God for being extremely kind!



Just found this picture from the Circ Res Facebook page - Sunday's award -


Wednesday, October 26, 2011

4 years and still waiting..

Missed the travel award from AHA for the 4th year. Seems quite elusive this one.. Here's my saga with this award... I didn't apply for one in 2008, in my first year of submission at AHA when it was an oral ppt. In 2009, it was a poster - so dint get it. 2010, I had an oral ppt but it did not fit into the categories listed out by AHA. 2011- again a poster. The chances of getting the award while your abstract's selected for a poster ppt is very bleak.. I guess it's because of the scoring. Your abstract gets selected as an oral or poster presentation depending upon the score it gets, with oral being the higher of the two. It's obviously not the end of the world that I haven't gotten this.. I'm happy with the award I just recently received (Needless to say, infinite thanks and gratitude go out to the mentor).. But I really want to keep track of how long it's actually gonna take me to win the AHA travel award.. I don't know why.. but just want to. I remember a friend got it the very first year she applied, and I know of colleagues who have received it 2-3 times (although you're allowed to receive it only once).. but its still evading me. And I will wait to see if sometime in the future I can succeed in living up to my expectations wrt this award. Amen!

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Best Mauscript Award

Found a mail from my mentor with a letter stating the following -

"Dear Dr. Hariharan and Dr. Sadoshima, 


 The Editors of Circulation Research are continuing a new initiative implemented two years ago, the annual Best Manuscript Awards, which is aimed at recognizing the most outstanding articles published in our journal. The presentation of the Best Manuscript Awards will take place at the annual Circulation Research editorial board dinner during the AHA Scientific Sessions 2011 in Orlando, Florida. 
Five papers will be recognized among all 219 original research articles published in Circulation Research from July 2010 to June 2011. We are pleased to inform you that your manuscript {Hariharan et al., Deacetylation of FoxO by Sirt1 Plays an Essential Role in Mediating Starvation-Induced Autophagy in Cardiac Myocytes. Circ Res. 2010;107:1470–1482} has been selected by the Editors as one of the five winners of our 2011 Best Manuscript Awards. Your article has met high standards of scientific excellence in terms of novelty, impact, and methodology; it has been widely read online following publication, and represents some of the very best work published in Circulation Research. 
We cordially invite you to attend the annual Circulation Research editorial board dinner, where the award will be presented to you. The dinner will take place at The Peabody Orlando on Sunday, November 13th at 8:00 PM (7:00 PM Reception). The favor of your response is greatly appreciated. 
Congratulations again for an outstanding article and for your contributions to Circulation Research. 


 Sincerely, 
Roberto Bolli, 
MD Editor-in-Chief Circulation Research, 
Journal of the American Heart Association" 

 Thank you God and Dr. Sadoshima for guiding me all through!

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Many more thanks

Early this morning, I became the proud aunt of a 'beautiful' niece. Maitri is what we'll call her! I'm putting the beautiful in quotes, because I still haven't seen her. But I'm sure she is gonna be a beauty, no doubts! I'm all excited for my dear sis and bil! Parenthood is something that comes naturally to them! I'm sure they're gonna be very caring and adorable parents! Thankyou God for everything!

The past year has taught me that surrendering everything is the only way things work. Mebbe I should rephrase it, surrendering is the only way one can deal with questions for which only time has an answer. Unfortunately there are some questions/ circumstances in life which only time can answer. If you surrender, you just drop it and actually tell your mind that things will come by and fall into place. It's more like you are endlessly procrastinating worrying about something when you surrender!! At least that's the way I see it. Surrender, get it off your mind, move on and He WILL take care of things - have faith. This doesn't take away the fact that you need to work and do your job. Do your best and leave the rest to be taken care of. It will be. Amen to that!

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Gen!

I decided to drop by here and dust things around a bit..leave a nice note or two to myself...
I feel immensely grateful. Tears well up every time I think of how deeply indebted I am. It's nice that we have other forms of communication, even within and to our own selves, when words clearly fail! Hmmm.. thank you for giving me plenty of reasons to thank you for! I read somewhere that it's a good idea to keep a gratitude journal.. mebbe I should keep a separate section here in this site, just to give thanks.

The wedding's a week away! Amma and I have been shopping like maniacs.. mad zombies scouting around every nook and cranny in pondy bazaar, adyar, besant nagar, alwarpet, cathedral road, nungambakam, mount road, trying to get things done. Much more than the event itself, the preparation for it is loadsa fun. Again, many thanks for helping us find the right things at the right time.
A and I decided to have our own wedding invite, which we designed during Xmas and New year'10. A bumped into 'goanimate' and we found the user friendly flash animation pretty cool. For lack of a better idea, we decided to put our own story as an animation video and then decided to have a wedding website to go with the animation video. Up until the very end, we weren't sure of the site/invite. Sheer laziness to re-create a normal wedding site made us stick on to this one and we were pleasantly surprised at the most receptive response. Thank you for that! Serendipity at its best :)

The oscars and red carpet is quite distracting. This is the first time I'm watching it from India. So over and out!

Monday, January 03, 2011

The year that's gone by..




Hello 2011! :) Its a new year. Several new beginnings for me.. a new city, new house, new work place. Loving it so far. But, when I look back at the year that's gone by, I feel grateful that it's been an awesome 365 days. A year that's seen many milestones, a year of celebrations! I thank God for all those cherished moments! Here's my quick acknowledgement list

A's posting in Seattle after a brief stint in India - Prof talking to me about graduation for the first ever time! - Travelling to and fro Seattle - Job Interviews - Post doctoral positions - first 'First Author' paper in Antioxidant Redox Signaling - second 'First Author' paper in Circulation Research - Defense - Dr. Nirmala Hariharan :) - a fun graduation bash with friends - Circ. Res paper is one of the most downloaded papers - 3 presentations in the American Heart Association Scientific Sessions convention - an awesomeeee cross country road trip from NJ to CA, covering 16 states in 9 days (which reminds me, I should blog about that separately) - to conceptions - wedding planning - H1B visas - settling in San Diego - a very merry Christmas with family and a fun new year!

Thank you Dearest for everything you've given me this past year.

Friday, November 12, 2010

Thrilled.. Yeayy!

My prof just sent me a congratulatory email for this -

"The editors of Circulation Research wish to congratulate you and your co-authors for having published one of the most downloaded articles in our journal. During October 2010, your Online First article, “Deacetylation of FoxO by Sirt1 Plays an Essential Role in Mediating Starvation-Induced Autophagy in Cardiac Myocytes,” was downloaded and viewed over 440 times, placing it in the top tier for the month.

Thank you for submitting this outstanding article and for your contribution to Circulation Research."

Yeayy! :)

Friday, September 17, 2010

"Dr."

:)
It's such a surreal feeling. It just doesn't sink in. It's soo hard to believe that it's happened and even harder to believe that it's probably gonna change your life forever. For me, my life feels just the same at this moment. In my head, I just think that it's not such a big deal..I felt I was more nervous, better prepared and FAR more excited when I completed my Qualifiers! But over 100 congratulatory notes in a few hours does make you feel special and reminds you of all the goodness in the world!
I feel extremeellllyy grateful to God for everything. Went and gave my thanks to the Dearest in Pomona. Lovee him.. Grown absolutelly attached since my first trip in Jan 2008.
And the evening I spent with my friends here in NJ. Laughed sooo hard that one of us really fell off the chair. :) (For a change, it wasn't me!)
A BEAUTIFUL day. Overwhelmingly grateful for everything and everyone. Thanks for this moment, for the people, for being there, for every Singlee thing.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

.. Free from everything.. :)

When I saw him the last time I went to his place, I couldn't ask for anything. His magnificence..the feeling of a peaceful yet authoritative control over everything earthly and otherwise just made me shut up. All I could do was be meek and then in awe..and remember all the good times we've shared. I just couldn't get myself to ask for this and that.. or to demand reasons for anything. All I could do was be at ease..just gape, drop everything and turn back in full contentment. Not a worry or care in the world.

I love the fact that I've had these hallowed niches in most places I go to (his willing). In Chennai, there's more than one to name. And I can never leave the city without meeting these best friends of mine. They've been there with me through my thick and thin, while in fact putting me through the thick and thin. In Pilani, it was a school in Chirawa. And now its here in Pomona. Over the past 2 years, I have become soo attached.. I'm almost possessive of the place.I cant think of being in town and not visiting. I love the relationships I've shared with all of them and I absolutely yearn for more.

I was just listening to "Zindagi.. Kya kami rah gayi" and was reminded of the feeling that I got last saturday. A feeling of pure contentment that EVERYTHING in the world is Perfect. That I'm not short of anything in life. Enda kurayume illa. A feeling of pure joy and bliss.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Cheers to life!

I've finally officially become an Elite one pass member of my favorite airline! It's something I've always wanted to be and now when I am "elite" enough, I'm lovinngggg it! :D
Continental has also been appreciating all my travelling by upgrading my seats to first class in some of the flights! And life has definitely been such a bliss! There's good food (and free alcohol.. fyi to all u alcohol lovers). You get to board the flight first. Drinks are served to you even before the flight takes off. They take care of your jackets for you. Seats are wider, recline better and there's plentty of space for yourself and a nice big handbag! :)It's absolutelllyy amazing treatment! Food is topnotch especially in a cross country flight. It's a 3 course dinner and they treat you like the way u'd be treated in "fine dining" restaurant! All in all, Business/First class treatment is something you got to experience especially if you travel quite often!
Aha.. the small things in life that make it so muchh more better! :)

Been meeting people and bragging a lot about my lab.. especially my Guru! I've been getting several chances to realize how really lucky I am to get a mentor like him.. someone as committed and as dedicated as he is despite the fact that he is really well established. Truly inspiring. I've been making a mental note of all this.. so I can really talk about him when I get to the acknowledgements section in THE presentation! And when I reflect upon how much I've learned over the last 3-4 years just by observing him, I realize he's been a great inspiration in my life!

A big Thankuu to all of the Gods above for everything and everyone that make my life meaningful! Cheers to life!

Thursday, April 15, 2010

To be or not to be..

And there are strong followers and then there is a group of bloggers who are anti-followers. They want to provide relief and healing to those who doubt the credibility of the organization that has such a cult following.
I of course have my own doubts about the whole thing, like I've mentioned here many times before. And more often than not, it suits me fine to just stay away. Because for me SK almost always got me angry and bugged rather than calming me down and bringing tranquility.
But when I look at my close other's life.. its changed for the best.. not just better. She has a sense of calmness and an ability to accept everything like no other. And while I admire that with respect and reverence, I still have my own doubts.
There IS always the BUT for me when it comes to the organization. The economics of it has ALWAYS baffled me.. and in fact made me remarkably agonized. I just never get it. So big an organization should never be charging people through their noses for what they are offering. My respect for it would have sky rocketed if it had been really people's wallet friendly! But apparently not. When asked about why its soo unaffordable..even for students..(what about students without funding).. the teachers did not have a credible answer. They claimed that people don't respect what is cheap/free. My head spun when I heard that. Again.. Pomona has pampered me WAY too much! But seriously.. that's the best you can say??? And I read somewhere that the founder himself was asked the same thing, to which his witty Holiness retorted saying.. If you want it free, go to prison... its free in prison! And I was annoyed like no other!
Yet his AG does make sense. I like it .. all the more 'cos it's free!
And so while I do "follow" his blog at times.. I am also contemplating "following" the rebellion's Inc. I don't know whether to call it confusion or hypocrisy :(
But I guess I need a bit of both.. the words of wisdom and the question-ability!! But whatever it is.. after my mom's words to me.." Ninda stuthi pannadhey", I'm thinking I should just watch both sides and take only that which seems sensible and which satisfies my temperament. And I guess most of you who are not tooo into in the cult, but have experienced it will be like me!

Friday, November 27, 2009

Dream on..

And I dream on.
I think of all the traveling I would like to do. Writing of course.. not that any one would care to read it. But come on.. when the words fall right into place in a smooth flow.. when you don't even have to pause and think, but the words just keep coming.. penning your thoughts is simply one of the most wonderful things to do! (Reminds me of a conversation with a friend... you write for yourself much more than writing to be read! Writing can give you a joy like no other..) And of course, music. Lots of it. It would be a fun life.. a nice combination of all 3. Of course if only I'd have the time for all that and loadsa money to do all that traveling.....
But still it doesn't hurt to dream on.. does it? I love the childishness associated with it. It's fun to dream .. what will I be when I "grow up"? What will I do when I'm done with this? Or what next? Mebbe I may do it all.. or mebbe none at all. But still.. building castles in the air does let you dream passionately. It's more fun to dream than to even achieve it! :)

And on a totally different context, here's my thanksgiving note..
Enjoyed a beautiful evening on my own in my third home (Pomona)! A wonderful concert. Great food. And the fact that He's so close. I love it. I'm thankful for it all. Thank you!

Monday, October 26, 2009

The Gods are truly crazy!!

I really think the Gods out there are crazy. I'm amused at the way He designs things and people and situations. Well, most of the times I feel that people are just pawns being moved by circumstances and fate or destiny or supernatural or God's will.. whatever be the name you'd like to give it. Sometimes I think maybe He really feels bored up there in his perfect world and to amuse Himself He creates "problems" and "difficulties" in people's lives, so that at least if a few people call Him back to sort out the knots, He can become busy! Crazy strategy to keep yourself busy, right? If you really watch your life indifferently from a third person's perspective.. you'll realize it's quite funny. The problem is we get so engrossed in our issues that we find no time to realize that there is a lot of humor even amidst all our problems. And recently I've begun to believe that while actually playing around, He likes to play with one toy a little more than the others. That probably explains why some people go through a lot of difficulties at one point of time than the others!! It will seem like there's this whole load of insurmountable problems to deal with.. not just one or two. But IMHO, it wouldn't be wrong to think of yourself as lucky if you find yourself in a situation like that.. piled under a mountain of issues! It's more like you are the chosen one.. the attractive toy that He is playing around with momentarily. So the next time you find yourself in a difficult situation, be happy. Because it means He has picked you.. and sooner or later the time will pass and things will change.. and He will sort things out for you (shower His grace, throw in a few miraculous moments here and there..) and pick sumone else! Of course, it would make life a lott easier for Him too if he were to just give everyone what they want, and make the world happy.. but well don't we already know it.. The Gods are really crazy! :D

Friday, May 01, 2009

Request for an answer..

Dear Void...
There's so much resistance. I close my eyes hoping to feel better.. to feel refreshed and energized.. to enjoy the bliss and tranquility that so many seem to have experienced. But for me, its just ANGER. Lots & lots of displeasure. Feverishness. It chews me up and makes me want to get an answer all the more. And I open my eyes, and decide I can't do it. Way too much inertia. I feel happier when I don't do it. I feel at my own steady state of peace.
I can't go on like this. And to be honest, I'm shocked at my reaction and feelings. I usually open up to thee really soon, but here I can feel the block... the turbulence. So before you drive me away completely from the joy that lies within, gimme the answer. Direct this to the One responsible..and gimme the answer I seek. Please....

Monday, June 23, 2008

The spiritual me -1

I've always wanted to make another blog called thespiritualme@blogspot.com or sumthing like that. But havent done it yet.
Neways.. heres an article I wrote about complete surrender to God. Wrote it for a news letter that came out as part of a Sai Temple.

REF: http://www.thesaifoundation.org/saiJoomlaProd
/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=131&Itemid=79

True Surrender – The easy way to live life

Almost every religion that exists, that I know of, believes in complete and total surrender to God – the concept of Poorna Sharanagathi as can be said in Sanskrit. So what really is “total surrender”? And what is the purpose of doing it? I just searched for the words “to surrender to God” in Google and I found a good explanation on one of the sites.

Surrender means to yield ownership, to relinquish control over what we consider ours: our property, our time, our"rights". When we surrender to God, we are simply acknowledging that what we "own" actually belongs to Him. He is the giver of all things. We are responsible to care for what God has given us, as stewards of His property, but by surrendering to God, we admit that He is ultimately in control of everything, including our present circumstances. Surrendering to God helps us to let go of whatever has been holding us back from God's best, for our lives. By surrendering to God, we let go of whatever has kept us from wanting God's ways first.”

http://www.allaboutfollowingjesus.org/surrender-to-god.htm

Complete surrender is one of the most difficult things to do in life. It’s simply impossible for most people to just “give up” everything to God and tell Him that He is the one who’s got to take care of everything; the biggest obstacle in the way being our ego. Ego is a conscious feeling of your self and identity, the knowledge of ‘I’, the thought that ‘I am me’. It is when we start thinking that we are the doers of the action and we are the ones to bear the fruits of the actions. It is one of the root causes for most problems and confusions in life. Very few people actually get the courage to acknowledge the fact that in reality there is someone up there who is actually controlling our reins and executing things according to His will and wish, and we are nothing but mere instruments in the process. So is there any need for all the ego and fights when there is only He?

What does it really take to surrender? To surrender is to simply have 100% faith and confidence in the Divine that He WILL take care of you. He may toss you around through different really difficult situations in life, from which you believe that you just cannot come out. But all you actually need to do is to simply surrender to Him and tell Him that since He is the one that’s putting you through all the problems, its His responsibility to get you out of it as well. And well, believe it or not, He will do it! After all His whole purpose of creating problems in people’s lives (and eventually getting them out of them), is to show that He is there. We just need to believe in His presence firmly, with a lot of faith and trust. Surrendering is like a magic potion. It is the one thing that can keep you stress free, and keep you happy despite the turmoil you may face in life because once you surrender to God, you want His will to be done and not yours. And so you are prepared for anything to happen. You leave aside your opinions of what may be the best or worst in the situation and you start being open hearted and open minded. It silences the confusions in you and keeps you ready to accept anything that may happen. You just learn to accept it without much ado and complaints, and rather happily that, that was how things were meant to be. And so you start looking at things beyond the problem/ confusion and start living up life.

And so, how exactly do we surrender? In my personal experience I have seen that writing to Him is the easiest way to do it. One way is to keep a diary and write letters to Him in it. Make it a habit to jot down all your thoughts, dreams, problems, confusions, prayers whenever time permits. Try and share everything with Him- the wildest dreams to the deepest fears. Usually when you look back at your previous diary entries or your previous letters, you WILL find that He has taken care of most of it. Suppose you reported confusion in your life and didn’t know how to handle it then, after you write a letter of surrender to God, the problem usually will get solved or answered by the time you actually check on it again. Here at Kalpataru Sai Nilayam, Rev. Mira Sai Maa graciously reads out letters of devotees in private to Shri Baba. You can just visit the website at http://www.thesaifoundation.org/ and submit your prayers there. Just write down whatever you will and please, and it will be read out very soon to Baba. And before you even realize, most of your problems will be attended to and taken care of by Him. It is our great fortune to have Baba listening to all our prayers here at Kalpataru Sai Nilayam. So, even if you are in the middle of work and are just completely frustrated with something, don’t let it nag you inside out. Just submit your prayers there, surrender everything to Him and leave it. He will attend to it. Of course, we have to learn to wait patiently for Him to act on it. Don’t let the mind run wild while you are waiting on it. Simply believe that He will look on to it. And once you think that He has solved your problem or confusion, let’s not forget to thank him for it. Thanksgiving to God is extremely important. We should tell him periodically that we are happy for everything He is giving us and especially for taking care of us.

So, just surrender to Him. Leave all your problems aside with Him, asking Him to take care of them, and learn to live life happily and to enjoy even the smallest of His creations. Surrendering is probably the healthiest way to deal with stress and to live life happily and it definitely is the right thing to do.

Sai Ram.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Sarvam samarpanam..

To the One I trust more than anything else..

Dearest,
I look back and think about all that You have helped me do for the last 10 - 15 years of my life. In every stage of my life...every success and failure, I have felt Your presence..and am sure I will continue to do so. You have been really kind and loving and I waana thankyou for every bit I've experienced... everything that has ever happened to me in the world...both good and bad. Jus the mere thought that You are there..."sarvam samarpanam" ..keeps me alive and kicking....

Hope to be always indebted to You, so I can NEVER forget You, or NEVER feel ur not there. Love you always!

Charanam Prapadhye!