One brilliant Concert..

I am at a loss of words to describe the feeling I get when I listen to Yanni. Only this time I was in a Yanni Voices - live Concert. And OMG what a show it was! :)
I've been following Yanni's tours on his website right from the beginning of this year and was super excited when I knew about his concert in NYC-NJ. And to make things perfect I got a pretty good deal on the tickets! So there I was driving down 240 miles to Atlantic City just to listen to Yanni and ofcourse it turned out to be one of the best concerts ever!
I was a little skeptical that it might be wierd listening to voices in an instrumental piece you've grown up listening to. Thankfully, it wasn't true! Most of the songs were really good with the voices. They blended in perfectly with the music. But for some songs, the voices kinda overshadowed the instruments. But even then, I found it thoroughly enjoyable. I had goose bumps right from the time I walked into the hall, and not to forget a small tear of joy.
But what will remain unforgettable about this concert was the finale. The singers crooned "Niki Nana" and the energy of the song got translated to the crowd. People were cheering loudly and when the whole ensemble of singers and the instrumentalists on stage gathered together, people thought it was the last song and gave a standing ovation. While few started to descend out of the hall, our man started playing Acroyali/standing in motion immediately followed by Nostalgia. The crowd went hysteric and cheered like they would lose their lives if they didn't. Yanni came up to the mic after the song and yelled .. "Don't you guys waana go home"? When everyone yelled back a strong Noooo.. he just said "Neither do we. This one's the storm". By the time he said that, the crowd was a frenzy and as for me I had goose bumps all over. It was simply PERFECT and made me happy that a long-cherished dream of going to a Yanni - Live concert was finally fulfilled.

Request for an answer..

Dear Void...
There's so much resistance. I close my eyes hoping to feel better.. to feel refreshed and energized.. to enjoy the bliss and tranquility that so many seem to have experienced. But for me, its just ANGER. Lots & lots of displeasure. Feverishness. It chews me up and makes me want to get an answer all the more. And I open my eyes, and decide I can't do it. Way too much inertia. I feel happier when I don't do it. I feel at my own steady state of peace.
I can't go on like this. And to be honest, I'm shocked at my reaction and feelings. I usually open up to thee really soon, but here I can feel the block... the turbulence. So before you drive me away completely from the joy that lies within, gimme the answer. Direct this to the One responsible..and gimme the answer I seek. Please....