Life's beautiful

Phew!! I just took a look at my previous posts..and my blogspot sounds damn too depressing to me! i think its about time i update this spot. Over the last month or so, Ive been wanting to blog about different topics..everytime Id start..but would lose enthu or would become busy...n so would jus let it be. Neways this one is jus a random one to change the mood or tone of my page..jus to remind myself that life is infact very beautiful- thats what ive been telling myself and feeling over the last month!

Lifes indeed beautiful - Acknowledgements..
Jan 20 - 8 am - sleepy thots - how the heck can one survive-walk in the cold?? - 'Surprise' - Raj, Lokesh, Shakthi - "vaaya saravana bhawan la poi saapdalam!!!" - dunkin donuts breakfast feast - lachcha - "bank la check deposit pannanum!!" - "hotel saravana bhawan" - lynden - car dealer - CARSS - "nee yen idha test drive panna koodadhu??" - test drive - hyundai accent 2000 model - "ennakku otta varuma??" - "nimmy slow va po...left turn edu, and ippo right..." - "i dint quite think ill be a part of a driving class too!! " - "ok vll take the car!!" - "Congrats on ur first car!!" - "WHATTTTTT???" - "All credit goes to Raj" - "saw car deals before coming to NJ - oru 60 - 70 cars paathruppen - liked this one - lokesh went from work yesterday and test drove it- was supposed to drive it and come - aana thot u shd see it urself..its ur first car nimmy!" - " learn to love ur car!" - "seriously WHATTTTT??" - bugs,amma,kala - "huhhhhh??? WHATTTTTT??? - sridhar - "huhhh...HUH!!! Sooperr ya!!" - sunday car pooja - bridgewater - nite drive to saravana bhawan - "aahaaa right edhu left edhu nnee therialaiye!!! "

Definitely the intentions are more valuable than the car itself. Thankx a tonne Raj for every thing in every small n big way. Thankyou Lokesh for all the practice driving over the summer and for test driving on the friday b4 THE saturday! :) thanx guyz.

Experience:
Learnt to do my first animal sacrifice in the name of science!! This was supposed to be a separate blog on its own...but as i said..lost enthu! Neways..i was horrified at the thot of having to 'sac' an animal...all thru the summer spent a lott of time pondering over if I could really do it..or could I give religion as an excuse?? after all in Hinduism, every animal...and particularly every lab animal is deified - mice, pigs.!!
I thought I had gotten used to the site of seeing and working with a bloddy carcass in front of me...and so infact was quite ok with the practice sessions..and the practice sac-ing.
But Feb 14, 2007 - valentines day..my third time with the sacing - I felt MISERABLEEE as i was killing those animals..ya i know its called "sacrifice" - oh but come on..death is death indeed watever u name it...i dont think i have cried so much in a whilee now..id sac a mouse and feel disgusteddddd with myself...would call my help line - 973-392-4312 - pour gallonsss - "I feel like a family member of mine is lying there in a blood pool!!" - come back feeling "ok its for science..its for mankind..its for science", would pop in some of those god - sent oreo biscuits, sac another mouse, loath myself for having chosen this field - would pep myself - sac another mouse and thats it..dial the hot line again!!!
God saved me that day!! Wont forget that day when I actually ate 27 oreo cookies...ya well chocolate and my friends do wonders to me in my life!!!

Anyways..no complaints wat-so-ever..getting used to it..haveta sac them...a post doc near me reminds me - " dontt say "im sorry" to those mice..u shd thank them for giving you the data that they r giving u..ur the first one to know about it..so thank them for that!"
neways..be it this logic..or the philosophy of the bhagavad gita which struck me the next day (b4 i had to sac 4 more mice) - "the Arjuna Factor " or " Karmanye Vadhikarasthe Ma Phaleshu Kadhachana, Karma Phala Hethur Bhur Mathe Sangosthava Karmani! - I think i will haveta get used to it..and Im quite positive I will... a post doc assures me .." trust me in 6 months..ull think anesthesia is waste of time..ull go in strait for cervical dislocation"
Thatttt..only time will tell .
(Lets not worry too much about some of the 'jargon' here - its to remind myself of my thots!!)

Another thot thats been in my head - I think its a really neat way to show urself Lifes beautiful!! A few days before valentines day - was reminded of mokshi - and her way of gifting herself for the 3rd year Valentines day. She'd made such a big hype in the wing about it ..like 3 days b4 val day or sumthing...and then 11 pm on val day..the wing saw the worlds uggliest bunny rabbit EVER!!! worth 200 buckss...not to forget she'd paid 10 bucks to gift wrap it ...jus to be opened by herself!! suddenly this episode struck me..and I personally think its one of the very beautiful ways to live...its a reminder to urself that u love urself..ur life, everything thats happening in it..and u want to treat uself cos ur happy about it. Either that...or ur having a not-so-grand period, and u want to tell urself that life aint all that bad afterall, or u want to treat or gift urself for having done sumthing huge....watever may be the reason..i think its a good sign..a healthy sign of living life!! So all of u whos reading this..find a reason to treat/pamper/gift urself..go spend that money and get urself sumthing precious n sumthing uve wanted for a long time!! :) its good n definitely worth it!!
Jus live and feel ur beautiful life!